When I hug you, I feel nothing. there's only empty space around me. I close my eyes, I can finally see I'm choking, it's getting harder to breathe. Your embrace is not warm, replaced by bitter arms, you surround me. I don't want you. Why cant you let me be. Are there shackles placed that I can't see? Please, I want to be free. all I can hear are my pleas "I miss the iridescence. I don't want your presence. You're no longer welcome, please leave." Depression has a hold on me.
You're not alone, and you are loved. Suicide Hot line number 1-800-273-8255.