a friend of mine once asked me if one of my poems was about someone who had been brainwashed. i simply answered "no" and silenced the thought, for the poem had been about myself. in the week to come, i came to realize that yes, in fact, i had been brainwashed. my sadness had brainwashed me and now my fried brain has destroyed any thought of recovery. the sadness is addictive. escape while you can.