Why do I feel a failure When I prefer to be a sailor, A loner, a lost ghost, A captain of a ship I pray I live in hope My last words won’t ever slip I dream yet still learn Your tender touch I mustn’t yearn I laugh outside, But cry hard inside Like a loud ringing bell You will never know I live in hell Every tear drop I weep I’m able to wash down Every sidewalk, alley, Even the dingiest street Now, I mustn’t go astray If I was to say I saw my mum asleep Also thought it would be The last time we’d ever meet