The truth is,
that I think I gave up a long time ago.
I think a lot of us do,
we give up on that
‘dream’
you know.
That warm, glowing idea
The idea we have for what our future will be like.
You have this wonderful charlie in the chocolate factory adventure,
filled with an immense lord-of-the-rings turmoil.
A struggle
in which you somehow fight all of your fears.
Surpass all your human weakness and rise anew
like a phoenix from the ashes.
You rescue that helpless little princess
and you live forever in nursery rhymes.
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I suppose I realized this lie,
that’s when I suppose I started
drinking,
*******,
killing
everything in sight.
I was angry.
And I still am.

N.H.