heart of mind once 
I'm slowing down now 
Gone and got myself married.
This so wonderfully.
would be drowning, my head under completely
and my oxygen quickly depleting. 

If confusion was cold, 
My fingers would be numb and I wouldn't even
have a coat to ward off the freezing. 

If youth was you,
It would be slipping away by the second,
And I can't get a hold to stop it. 
I'm shivering to the bone, 
and can't keep a hold on.
But, this is only a poem

late at night, i lie awake
thinking of things i should have said
all the mistakes i've made
and signs i should've read

then think about what i can't live without
you, front and center in my mind
sometimes it feels like halfway love
almost, but not quite

still, parts of you make me whole.
i think of love letters that weren't torn up
feelings of blue and green

when i'm without you
blank page, artless innocence
i realize how dependent i've grown to you
and feel the need to create a distance. 

but still couldnt forget you,
number five

Me who loved everyone of you 
but you left me wanting more,
was being loved.
but not anymore.

Show me you are different.
Show me you will not leave bruises on my throat from holding me close to you too tightly.
But show me you want me.

tell me, not my inner thighs.
Because I want to show you I want this.
I want to be there when you look at the sunset and realize it is the most beautiful thing on this earth.

I want to be there when it is hard to breathe because sometimes this world only does bad.
Show me you want this too.🌹🔥🌹🔥🌹📝