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Since i left you hanging on the cold empty bed.
I have been constantly depressed.
My happiness is to be next to you.
Incessantly I live over in my memory of your caresses.

With your tears soaking the bed wet.
Heart broken and confused.
Your affections solitude.
Asking unending questions of what wrong you did.

Your charm eas incomparable.
You had a burning and a glowing flame in your mind.
I wanted you to be free from my anxiety.
I couldn't burden you with my grieve.
That i had blood cancer.
With only a week to live.

I could not watch you shrink each day to suffering.
Remembering the good all times we had together.
You were so young and so beautiful full of life.
I took an easy way out of being a dog.
My ego and selfishness couldn't let me say goodbye properly.

I wanted you to think there's another woman.
But my hear only beats for you.
Now that i am paralysed in a wheelchair far form you.
Now far from you i got the audacity mend my mistakes.

You were my my bone my sugar palms cream.
But i should have trusted and hope in you.
You were not only my wife but also my bestfriend that i shared secrets with.
You were the face that made return home quickly to calm the storm in my mind.

Shall i be able to pass all my time with you?
Having to only love you.
To think only the happiness you bought to me.
The desires that you gave me only linger in my mind .
Like a distant playing song in the shadows.

Its true when they say missed opportunity can be bought back.
Time wasted cannot be bought back.
I played with your feelings and love.
For that i will be forever sorry and guilty of inhuman crime.
Tears of guilt close this letter with pain and anguish 😦😦✈