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When i caught a glimpse of you.
I thought wow you could be my friends.
Visitation days of you going up and down.
You caught feelings.
I could give you an honest answer told i could try.

I have been trying since then with my actions.
Bought you presents to appease your heart .
Sacrifice my time and joy to make you happy.
You always seek validation anywhere.
It was obsession for you.
I taught you to love.

You loved alcohol more than me.
You sacrificed me for your friends.
No that you are in the cold pit alone?
I am the one you come running too.
When you lost everything i was your confident that hold your hand.

Now i am torn between ending it all or giving you a chance.
I wish i had somebody to tell me its worth it.
But nothing its worth it when its one sided.
What do you do when the love of your life is an addict.
She refused to be helped.
Her favourite hobby is to be intoxicated.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth.
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober.

i'm drunk on the
memory of you.
Cause tears drops stroll around my heart.
This disease struck me.
Like a brick on pavement
Hard.

Everything was
Perfect.
Then that brick came along.
And with the slightest movement.
Destroyed everything.
Your friend took something that was worth more than life for you.
She replaced me with a bottle in your hand.

“Count it
Perfect it
Measure it
Clean it”
The voices say is she now worth your sleepless  nights?
Nope she is beyond redemption.
My love fornyou died the minute you drowned yourself in the bottle.

Why can’t I let them go?
They keep repeating.
Cause i am not bound by anything.
Letting you go i am afraid you will commit suicide.
I was your first love and i will be the end of me.

The melody no longer sounds the same.
The food tastes bitter.
I got insomnia and depression cause I lost the love i had for you.
I roamed around the streets like a mad man.
Not knowing what to do.
My heart is telling me is enough.
The whispers around me saying dont give up on her.
Give her a chance .
Remember the memory you gave her.
The support you shown her in the calamity that faced her before.
Without you she is nothing and i lost soul.

I am troubled by the love thats fades away from my soul.
I am angry cause i gave her everything.
I am numb cause i let all others sleep away to be with you.
My regret is should have let you marry your bottle.
After being intoxicated with it then marry your friend.
Cause i died in my heart to show you the true meaning of love.🌹🔥🌹🔥🌹🔥🌹🔥