The only person who calls me today is the creditor man. God told me I was supposed to date him from now on, and I guess I'll listen to him this time. There was a fear I had at 25, that I would crawl out of an old apartment house each day, stinking of agedness. People, that fear is about to happen, and I don't know how to stop it. Death has me in it's grip, and despite everything Christ promises, I can not feel the light.