Heart beats fast
New journey
New road
The new path of my life
The new identity wraps my body like a forcefield
Hear the words of confidence ring in my tears

But those seconds will turn into minutes of fear and despair
It will make the world melancholy and my heart full of tears
The path in front of me tears apart
And the road behind me
the past
Vanishes

Stuck alone
Vent alone
Pain alone

Those confident steps turn into ashes of fear and regret
The backpack with faith woven in that held my hopes in it
RIPS
and I am left with a sack of burden nailed on my back
The hands that were eagerly holding the map
bleeds
blisters
and fall apart

With a step further
Jealousy
Hatred
Anger
Fear
Gluttony
Greed
Pride
Lust

Hits me with a bang
and I return
like a  demon possessing me

I take a shaky footstep back taking me to the past
Watery and salty tears fall and hit my tongue
The life and eagerness in me disintegrate
and I am left to wail my tears out and return
to the sheddings of my old identity
I returned with tears