He said he cared
He wanted to help
I opened up ...
he said I'm here for you
I tell him everything
how I hate myself
how no one wants me
how I tried to **** my self
as I look back I thought he truly cared
but that what all they all say  
until they don't want anything to do with me
as I sit there in the bed
thinking what did I do wrong
I thought he cared
I feel empty
so I go take a shower
I stand there the water so cold
I'm try not to cry
but it just starts
I scream
What the ****
I keep screaming
I fall to the ground I sit there
numb
I felt so hopeless
its like no one ever will help
I try over and over again to get help
but it destroys me more and more
as the cold water on my back falls to the ground
I tell myself I'm done
I'm done try
I'm done asking for help
I'm done opening up
no one really wants to help
I get out of the shower
and go to the cabinet
get the pills on the left side
and count them
one by one
and it feels good
not to feel a thing

RLC