he was the only reason
I was alive
and he knew it.

his love,
a ticking time bomb,
strapped to his chest.

I try my hardest
not to tie
my deadly self
around anyone else.

because when I detonated
I nearly brought everyone around me down too.

I'm ashamed
of the weight I put on your shoulders,
of the life I put in your hands.

I'm sorry you loved me.
I'm glad you escaped,
and we both made it out alive.