What if I'm drowning into my own tears ?
What if I'm just ignoring my feelings ?
I wish medicines could heal the damage you've gave.
Would you even care if I die today ?
I honestly feel like,
you never did,
so yeah ! It's okay.

I'm addicted to you and you're a drug to me,
I wish I could get over you,
but I don't see it happening.
You treated me like a cigarette,
and threw me away after making yourself feel good,
but what about me now ?
My love was true,
and I still have got feelings for you,
I don't regret falling for you,
because for a moment, everything felt perfect.
That touch of you,
the way you looked at me,
and those texts of you everyday.
All of it, I loved it.

I thought you'll be a definition of forever for me,
but guess who stated losing feelings,
in three months or just two ?
I don't understand why I couldn't see that it didn't even really mean a thing to you.
I was so in love with you,
and I hope you knew about this.
But if you did,
then why didn't you understand ?
Why did you leave me hanging like this ?

I gave a lot of me to you,
in the phase where,
I was in love with you.
I still am,
but it just don't matter anymore.
It would have been absolutely fine,
all of this,
if you told me that it's just not the same.
I would have just walked away,
rather than walking with you.
I would have just cried on my pillow,
rather than leaning on your shoulder.

When I was with you,
I never knew that all of this,
will vanish away from my life one day.
I didn't knew that my dream of being forever with you,
will be snatched away from my life that way.
I could have made it alone if you rejected me,
but how do I deal with all of this now ?
Because I've got memories with you,
I've lived the most special moments of my life, with you,
something that I can never forget.

Now, I'm stuck.
I don't know how to react to all of this.
So, I'll just write about all this,
all of my pain, in my poetry.
And try to let you go,
and keep you alive only in my words and not in my mind.