You

You’ve been always the man I thought of,
since you’ve talked to me I’m like a loaf,
flowing in winds of wavering,
above seas of suffering,
blind with flashes of pain,
wet through the heart with despair’s rain,
asking myself : what do I want from tis life ?
a rose or a knife ?
happiness or sadness ?
coming together or loneliness ?
answering myself : I want this both and all,
the spring and the fall,
the dark and the light
the day and the night,
dear, I want you and I don’t want you,
I love you and I don’t love you,
I just really don’t know what to answer,
to tell no, I don’t have the power,
to tell yes, I am still wandering,
wondering and wondering and wondering,
if I shall live alone,
if I shall keep my heart rough as a stone,
or if we shall have a real relationship,
going thus together through the life’s trip,
I really must decide, which of the life’s trains I have to ride,
this will may be take a lot of time,
but if you love me, just wait for my sign.

Me

I know all your feelings my dear,
I’m also living heartbreak and fear,
but a big difference between us remains,
even if we’re sharing sorrows and pains,
I know which road I want to follow,
I know that I want you to be my fellow,
for the best and the worst,
sharing the least and the most,
if you don’t know where you are,
just don’t let your mind go too far,
try to discover what or who you need,
think about it without hast or speed,
take your time and I will wait,
‘cause you’ll find the way soon or late,
till then I’ll keep the hope,
sinking, waiting for the saving line you’ll drop