craving something
                     i cant find it
         yet i know
i need it

please help me
   discover it                 recover it
                       locate it

withdrawals
                         **** people
         i'm not a smoker
      or                     drug addict
        
yet this ache
                burns            freezes
   numbs
i've forgotten

what its like
                        to not
        feel this way
                            hurting without pain