Ditched by the people I used to love Thoughts dashed apart by uncertainty But hey, it's my life. Lord of what I see, king of the carnivals of ruin. On hold, is what we are. On hold, is what we were.. I can't hold on, to an empty space. But I've learnt to take it easy on myself. Yeah. The new intros. The old rusty confessions. The islands, the bridges now burnt. My life and yours, in VCR. My breath, chained in yours. This basic space, together. In the sunset that never came.
Her records start to screech to a halt, my tears begin drying up. Her portrait begins turning blood red, my foaming mouth closing up.
The slow slide down into uncertainty ; the slow decline and realization I let my scars fester too long ; not even picking away at the scabs would help me now. February 2017.