I could have told you I loved you.
A million times a day.
Sleep walking through my life.
Like a doll all dressed up.
With a party in mind.
But nowhere to go.

I asked you how you see me.
You tell me that love has gone.
That it's for the best if I leave.
I tell you I have no place to go.
Must I start to hate you also.

The cold skies that grow between us.
Tears me up outside in.
I cannot find the answer.
You can't tell me why.
Only that it's over.

I wonder how to make it right.
I dont even know what is wrong.
I wont let it come to me.
I always knew the answer.
No matter how I fear it.

Friends tell me everything will be ok.
I only want me and you to be ok.
The rest can wait or go away.
I've begged God for help.
Knowing for certain he is with you.

Tango orange and pills on my table.
I digest and sleep in mid afternoon.
Woken by my voice of disappointment.
Always aware this was the outcome.
Twenty was never enough.

I rise and fall to my knees.
All in one moment.
Failure of a failed goal.
Only able to be the person I am.
Not the person I want to be