I wish that I could go away.

And I wish that when I went away,
The pieces of me I left with you,
I wish those would go away too.

I wish that every speck of sunlight
That fell upon my skin
Every breath of air
Left behind from my mouth
And every dream of touch
That lingered on your fingers-
I wish they’d go with me.

I don’t want you to remember me
I don’t want to cause you pain-
More pain than I extend
Even from my presence;

I don’t want to leave a mark
On your otherwise spotless record
A mote of dust
On an otherwise polished frame;
I want to disappear
Like the clouds from in front of the sun
Like the rain from a clear blue sky
Like my darkness impeding your light...

I’m sorry that I brought you with me
Down to the depths of darkness
Where my soul deigns to dwell
I’m sorry I suffocated you
Ruined you
Buried you
When all I wanted to do
Was breathe you in
And start afresh.