if you need me I'll be standing in the garden/porcelain roots pushing through dirt/glance out the kitchen window/see me swaying with the wind/I'll be your music box ballerina/a daisy in the mud/I could never be enough.
find me in my rain boots/right after a storm/***** fingernails/prying up bricks/finding ants but/praying for slugs/I've always scooped worms off sidewalks/set them down safe in the grass/but I've always been last/too busy befriending snails/to care about being first.
if you want me I'll be sitting/on the deck out back/the smell of rotting wood/cleans my soul/and my hands are happiest when/you can't wash the grime of/wet mossy wood off their palms/I was never enough.
find me making potions in the sandbox/rain water and dirt and grass and petals/and sand and leaves and tree bark/and one twig all in a *** stirred with a shovel/make love/I'll give you a bowl full for free.
if you want me/I'll be sitting in my favorite tree/the one you and dad are planning/to cut down next summer/I'll be watching the leaves/flicker in the wind/and holding clouds in my lungs/
I was never enough
for you.