It starts under the stars.
And laughing in cars.

Late at night we conversed and cried.
That was the difference of you and I.

Whenever we'd talk my smile spread wide.
Then you departed and my hopes have all died.

Buried in what I want to become.
To hide the truth that I am some ****.

Hiding from the truth of what we are.
Now I'm pulled from the dark and I say "please put me back in the jar."

I was doing so well.
In fact, quite swell.

Now...

Let me take you in time to a place long ago.
Where I danced and I partied and was there for a show.

I was so young and naive I thought the world could be played.
Now it's just me, my emotions and this ****** parade.

How to be best friends with someone you can never see?
The question I ask is "can it be?"

To encase one's heart in friendship and love all one needs is one simple thing.
Time spent together, laughter and joy. But oh the sting that that little thing brings.

Because although I would love to spend each day your friend in tow.
Laughing and crying and learning things new things to know.

I can't and won't and will never be allowed
to sing and to dance and say my feelings out loud.

I've given up the hope of talking to you.
You see that's the best I can ever do.

So I fake cool laughs and bright smiles.
Plastered on faces to hide that I've wild.

Now it's gone and I'm scared it's forever
You cried and said that you would never.
but...

I'm scared.