seatbelt clicks felt like a warning more than safety
god's booming voice
yelling i could **** you, i could click my fingers
his hands reaching through the clouds to choke me for sinking when i could swim  
if i wanted to badly enough.
but i can't really feel it anyway

i could feel anything if i let myself
if i wanted to badly enough
i'm lying just outside of a world i could probably face
if i wanted to badly enough.
im a little boy lying under sheets until i feel light and lights hitting little fingertips.
until i want light badly enough