Im supposed to be happy right ?
Everyone thinks that I am .
But that is a big joke.  
Everyday I try to hold it in
But my mind is  trapped in my body
I struggle to say the words out loud  
But out loud is scary  
The words are like a  scream for help
But I cant… I just cant
When they ask me if I’m fine
I shut down and smile  
I try so hard everyday to be perfect
But the girl in my soul is scream louder
Is it ever going to get better?


          -RLC