Dramatic progression of A terminal diagnosis Prognosis Is mostly hopeless Condition critical Like pesticide to locust Or a moon swollen With out attention To reflect the light of the sun Its frozen Never knowing of devotion Jesus I'm hopeless need you so bad But I'm closed to love And happiness Knowing only tragic Emotions Only cactus grows Until god showed up Ima rose now But my toes drown In the flowing lake of sadness Devastated by the regret encapsulated In my sanctum of madness Like a prison guard Keeping watch on me as I stroll along the polished pad. Mug of swollen pride And toes so cold there frozen Like my dad is. I pray jesus comes back and Knows immostly sorry for those habits Divorcing from devotion I supported so religiously will be magic to manage without your hand in. I'm a woman I think. My mind is lost Pointing in directions Placed in foreign spots Storms so calm My emotions are positively so opposite I ignore my thoughts Logically made perfect Throwing pebbles in a shore of rocks My body is in constant thought That no guy will ever find me hot I know I'm not. A top notch model Or a goddess yet. But sooner than I hope to make my fate less gloomy Lift mymood And finally choose a man. Doom and ******. The foolish cant. I tried so hard You knew that. I'm so foolish that I truly cant So ***** me man I'm doomed and ******. Tulips planted on your **** in june we plant.. you ******* knew we cant