I hope you've had sweet dreams the past five years; I know I have. I wish I looked more like you, talked more like you, was more like you. Then I could at least feel like you were real And luck was kinder. It's been so long since I've known what to do, or how to.
I haven't ever written much about you, For, or to you; Too many words I just can't say. I can't believe how much you haven't seen-- I've outgrown mom now. I graduate in twenty days.
You never saw the baby born, Or mama sick from chemo. She's never been the same since you, and I need all your strength. Just so you know, the whole world thinks you're a hero. I've never seen so many people cry within a hall's length.
I wish you'd seen me sing, I wish you could be in my wedding. A sister's such an awful thing to lose. I always tell you so much, I just wish that you could answer. No friend or pen can fill your shoes.
I miss our arguments and PC games and secret missions-- About the fire: I told mom. And by the way, I've never smoked in my life, and I won't. A promise is a promise, even if you're gone.
I miss you so much. I hope Jason Wade isn't married wherever you are. I just wish I could have you back.