Exhausted
Disgusted
Muddle-headed
Betrayed

My own blood
Taints my perspective
Of how it is
To be young and free

Love is unconditional
But I am exhausted
In trying to love
A fiend

This is my responsibility
But I am disgusted
In the behavior displayed
And the actions portrayed

I have more than one priority
But, I am so muddle-headed
Dreams and reals, haters and feels
All mix into colossal confusion

I will always have your back
But I have been betrayed
By your actions verses what you've said
It's hard to love with a head full of regret

It's not too much
But it is
Please, please just be good
I can't take too much more

When all is done and said
I will crawl back to my shed
**** the memories with new dreams
On a hammock, on a beach, in my head.