I'm really cold, wish I had grabbed a coat. Had to leave the awkward drama and I'm here feeling neurotic. Am I still psychotic? I wish a stranger would see past my smile by looking into my eyes. Cut me off to hug me and remind me that things are going to be alright. Didn't eat today, left to get my hoodie and glasses. Got angry messages. Avoided going home, I'm in my truck cold. Why does this keep happening? After my attempted changes am I still the problem?
I've had people who mean the world drop me to solve their own problems. We're all paying for life, don't matter because for reality we all be giving it a check. Haven't figured out **** yet. I'm exhausted, been wishing I was doing fine.
I've driven home everyday with tears running down my face. That ***** on the daily. Hold up I'm getting a call, it's anxiety leaving voicemails. I should call back, maybe.
I'm judge
Eyes sore
Hands shaking
Chest aching
Feelings deteriorating
Hearts breaking.