she’s pregnant with a boy

the size of a bean

with a heartbeat so loud that I’m affected by it.

I honestly feel like this child is mine

which crumples me

and ruins me

because if a 16 year old girl thought my baby was hers,

I would tell her that she might as well be infertile

But I’d apologize later.

But that baby will be the death of me

maybe he’ll teach me how to love