out the window as I sit and observe, the start of dawn-still moments away- with the silence claiming, I will obey-pay attention with senses more attuned pick up on the subtleties of floor to ceiling-as the shadows and light -bring into focus, the untouched; as such the dust motes from the day before that trail along the ungrained wood floor, I missed to the beating of my heart, once ignored as it beats it's echo- deep within my chest, of the feelings of abandonment, to the reasons unexplored till now and my longing for what-I am unable to recall - all within these moments, of here and now