i hate explaining what my depression feels like to other people because i know they are trying to understand but how do you explain something that you barely understand that would be like asking a toddler to teach a calculus class
so here is my attempt at explaining my depression
i have good days and bad days the good days are a lazy person's normal days today was a good day i did my hair and makeup i went to all three of my classes i ate lunch i washed my dishes i went to therapy i took a nap i watched youtube i went to a friends to watch a movie i ordered pizza i did homework i told myself good job after every single one of these things i told myself i was proud and that i was doing amazing and that it is ok that everything is hard but everyday i wake up is a step in the right direction but not all days are good days yesterday was a bad day i got up late went to class then laid in bed from 9 until my friend came to my room and forced me to eat lunch at 2 then i got back in bed until he came back at 6 and held me while i cried but bad days don't always look like that sometimes a bad day is me starting at my bottle of pills and crying while my roomate is asleep
it's impossible to explain depression. but here is a glimpse into my life