*******.

You think you know me?
You think you know what I'm here to inevitably accomplish?
You think I know who you are?

I don't know you
You don't know me

You are merely a concept people have derived from the crevices of their mind to justify their unhappy lives
They never fought for what they wanted
They succumbed to the ideology that one day everything will turn out fine

What if it's not fine?!
What then
Will I say it was my destiny to be unhappy?
Will I say it was my destiny to choose the wrong ending for my life and achieve nothing?

You're so **** obscure
I can't see through you the way you see through me
I can see through anyone and anything
but somehow you are still a mystery

Why do you determine my value?
How dare you dictate what I'm meant to be
How ******* dare you look down on me and not help me.
Where are your famous notions of "spiritual guidance"?

You are supposed to represent everything I will achieve
Yet you keep it a secret?!
Why are you so **** selfish
You watch me face this pain
You watch as I dive into the bowels of uncertainty
Silently, all-seeing
Not one word do you unearth from the corrosive housing of your trap

Do you really know what I'm going to do more than I do?
Maybe that's why you irk me to no end

I envy you
I envy your ability to know more of me than I know of myself
I envy your certainty
I envy your detachment
I envy your logic
I envy
you

How dare you remain silent in my most tumultuous times
How dare you hold back

I will fight for what I want
Even if I don't know what that is
I'm not going to use you as a crutch
I'm not like those who succumb to the tides of nonexistence
I exist and I have a choice
You can not take that from me

But you know what the funny part is?
No matter what I do
What I decide in the here and now

Inevitably it will all be you.