sometimes I think about all the things I told people about
I spent my years revealing myself to the girls who I thought will be my closest
To the men who I thought will stay by me
To the family members who I thought will support me

All that guilt and shame that swims around me
Made me think of death so much until it scares me
If I ever die by my choice
I want to say that you’ve shamed me so much and pushed me so hard to the wall
That I decided to use my grudges towards you and push it right through my soul

It still kills me when I think about my dead relationships and friendships
No argument was even needed to cut many of them off