I will like to apologise to that boy
I went into a delusional state of my idealism and faith
I wish you could see
How crazy I’ve gotten for you

How crazy I was becoming

But I know that this will all be over
The moment you decided how done you were
And it broke me so hard
But I know it’s what I’ve always wanted

I hate you for approaching me
I hate you for all those desperate texts
I only could wish that those messages were never sent in the first place

and sometimes
Just sometimes
I wish that things could work healthily between us
If only you saw me the way I saw you
If only you try to love me just the way I was subconsciously doing

I still think of you
Which is stupid
And sad
And I’ve become a mess
It’s hard
Why
Won’t
You
Ever
Like
Me
The
Way
I *******
Like
You