as the dusk heightens against an early winters backdrop, she walks, her head down as she thinks of; of him, he so full of presence of life itself, bigger than he; entering a room and so quickly noticed, she smiles at that; of him, of them how happy they were, planning each day together never thinking it would end like this-she walks past the lines of river birch, and scrub, as singular leaves brush past her shoulder; she enters through the gate to the small church yard and the cemetary beyond within a stones throw, she stands in front of a stone with a familar name, husband, son, father- as she reflects on a life not fully lived- had she only known; on what could have been, but will now never be- as a cold drizzle distracts her on further thoughts of him, she turns with sentiments now lost into the air itself- - she walks on alone arms folded against her chest as she steps back into the approaching night