There is something wrong with me,
I want to see the scale.
To gorge myself on ignorant
Imaginations.
Like a boy w blue eyes and blonde hair.

Yet,
For now I succumb to the troubles of sugar,
And the trials of sweets.
That blacken the whites of my
"Perfect teeth."

I'm ravenous and hungry
For something not good for me-
Like the lost daydreams of an altered reality.

I see the effects on my mind and my body,
I can pinch the moments where my thoughts have escaped.
Or my stomach,
which
I so lovingly hate.

Or my cheeks and my neck
Or with everything else.
What is my worth?
I always feel third, forth.
But I wanna be first

Better, beautiful, brainy
So I can smile
Successfully happy.

I eat up all my hatred and envy,
I feed this constant- lonely anxiety.

Save me, save me, save me
Save me please.

I've tried and I've failed
I know what i need.

You to get me through all of this.
Tell me I can do it.
Tell me it's going to be okay
Help me believe in myself

Set me free.
Help me become,
The real, true me.