Nothing has ever felt so backwards
each day I take a step
and every two days I take two back
I think I'm over you
I'm totally ready to move on
then someone asks me how you're doing
and I say I don't know
then I have to tell them why I don't know
then I realize
how fragile it all is
how, so suddenly, I don't know "how you're doing" anymore
exchange of words once threaded with love
suddenly turned into no words at all
the next day rolls by
and I'm doing fine
then another friend asks
"how's he doing?"
then I feel it again
like a little pen sticking my gooey heart
pressure on the chest doesn't last long
but I feel it
and that's when I take two steps back
when I realize I still care.