I want to fall on the bed with him
feverishly, colliding
take this part of me that hurts, please, please
make me able to trust that it is possible to hurt
in a good way
in a way that makes you feel alive

for too long I've felt locked out of myself
trying to swim to the top of the suffocate but getting my shoes stuck on a rock underwater
kicking and thrashing like a flower blooming under time lapse
but. do you see? do you see?
I can't bloom without the sun
you cannot give me the sun