Enough
This word
Enough
Has haunted me
For so long.
Skinny enough?
Pretty enough?
Smart enough?
Am I doing enough?
Am I good enough?
Sometimes it feels like
No matter how much I do
Or how much I try
The answer is a resounding
No.

Why am I not tough enough?
Why can’t I relax enough?
Take a joke,
Laugh it off.
Let me have my fun.
I try to but I can’t.
The weight of expectations
Both self-imposed
Or otherwise,
Feels like its bearing down
Crushing me
‘Till I can’t breathe.
Every mistake
Every perceived misstep
Feels like a fatal blow.

I don’t know what enough
Even means
Or who I need to be enough for.
But maybe once I reach it,
I will know.