I feel a familiar stinging
As my emotions flood to the corners of my eyes
And threaten to jump

My vision blurs
And I know
The people around me
Must be staring
Reading every word my
Sorrowful face conveys
Watching the outline of my jaw
As I try to stop it from quivering
Tracing the pain
In the red lines appearing in my eyes

I swallow hard

Do not show weakness
Do not show pain
Smile, darling

My throat aches
I'm so
Tired
Of holding back the salty oceans in my eyes
Tired
Of silencing my pain
And tucking it deep inside
Tired
Of unshed tears
And unspoken sorrow

So as I sit alone
Surrounded by strangers
On the train ride home
I weep