I feel the glare of the morning sun on my face and peel my eyes open
I stare right into the sun,
knowing she means best while my eyes adjust to the light

i started feeling uncomfortable in this skin a long time ago
itching for something bigger
i felt myself growing in so many ways
growing away from you
growing toward myself
I was so comfortable in this cocoon you helped me build around myself

i felt cozy being held so tightly
like nothing could hurt me
nothing could change
as long as i was tightly woven underneath your arms

but my wings had begun to grow
and for some time
I felt confined to the small space of our love
I knew that i wanted more for myself

bit by bit
i shed this old skin
caught a gust of fresh spring air
let my wings stretch out a little more
took a deep breath
And allowed the crisp fragrance of change
to fill my comfortable chamber

With the changing winds
Fear seeped from my being
and filled all the spaces around me
and made it hard to move
Hard to breathe
This can’t be right
painful growing pains
push through the sticky bits
plant a foot
stretch those wings
break open the chrysalis

That warm morning sun hit my cheeks
And
Fear evaporated from my skin
Chills ran down my spine
Resilience settled into my bones
And
I saw the sun peeking up from its resting place
Greeting me with a gentle reminder
That even she must go into darkness to be born again

I begin to feel wrapped in a warm tug
cradled in the soft caress of light
That I have manifested for myself
I have manifested for myself.

So I’m
steadying now
And
studying how
To be
In This freedom that lifts me into weightlessness
I feel stronger each day that I wake up on my own
And get to peer at the morning view
And Bask in the beauty of change

Prune my feathers
Grease my wings
Get rid of the soft down of scared old me
The winds are picking up now
And the horizon is calling my name