I was out at sea
For years
In an endless storm
That rocked my boat
Day in and day out
Too afraid to abandon ship
Paralyzed by the idea
That the captain must go down with his

Looking out at the choppy water
I decided to jump
And swim
In hopes of finding land
Desperate
To stand on solid ground again

I swam and I swam
And in the dark
While the sky fell to meet the waves
I saw something
A glimmer
A spark of hope On the horizon
A strong and steady beacon
Calling me to come home
To me

Days passed
And I persisted
Fighting the current in my head
That threatened to drag me further out to sea
A beam of bright white light catching my eye between every single wave
steadily reminding me of my own strength
My ability to ride the waves of uncertainty
And a call to follow my mortal desire for peace

So I stopped fighting so **** hard
And The waves still crashed around me
Pushing me in a new direction
As if the moon was on my side

I noticed how The sea foam cradled around me
And felt the rain slow
And noticed the light become brighter - closer

exhausted from the journey
I closed my eyes and floated on the slowing tide
Beginning to Trust the current of my life

I woke up this morning
Lying on solid ground
The waves barely grazing my feet
I could feel sand On my skin
And My face warm from the morning sun
I rolled to one side and cradled my naked body - in a doubtful haze
I grabbed the earth and clenched it in my hands
And began to weep

The sand endlessly welcomed my tears
And shifted to cradle my hollow form
The warm breeze gently reminding me
Of the changing season of my life

I looked up after a while
Realizing the beauty of my solace
The quiet of my breath
A heartbeat slow in my chest

My teary eyes began to focus
And just over the sand dunes
A lighthouse stood unwavering

Giver of light
My guide in the night
Calm washed over me
And peace settled into my bones

That afternoon I let my body rest
And gazed at the sky For some time
Re-discovering the sun and her piercing light
Letting her flood every corner of my being

there she was
In all her glory
There she’s been
All along
Sitting just behind the clouds
in my mind

She fills me with light and
Connects me with the truth of all that I am
That I am home
Now and always