Does anything happen in the hesitation
Can time move forward
Or am I sitting on the edge of my seat for nothing

I hesitate out of fear
Because I know what I’ve known
And I’ve lost myself to a lie before

I’m hesitant to feel anything
Because everything hurts
Even when it’s good

Why do I deserve good
When did I earn happiness
What makes me worth any effort

But I’m already lost again
And I know exactly where I am
And I already feel what I feel

This is like nothing I’ve ever known
And though I feel guilty
I want this feeling to stay