i watched blankets of people rip themselves off of you one by one by one you were no longer beautiful to them, the wrong things became important to you and so they left and you turned cold.
i still find you beautiful but i have divorced my heart from you there's not much to say when i see you, not enough space to feel when i'm around you, not enough affection to resuscitate all of the moments you let me drown.
i don't want to hate you anymore, but i don't want to love you either. both of them are painful, so i get caught in between.
i wish i could wish you a happy mother's day and feed into your belief that you are a good mother, the belief you use to cover up your deep seated self hatred but i can't.
i will always find you beautiful but i won't be around anymore to tell you that.