Happiness and feelings,
I keep a closed door
If I don't let them in,
they can't hurt me anymore

To push away the love,
you keep away the hate,
I've built up these walls,
And sealed my fate,

Do I love you?
I will never know,
I hide from myself
and tell myself no,

If you feel the same way,
that will always be a mystery,
Because I'm too afraid,
and we already have a history,

I'm sorry I'm like this,
But I swear I'm happy now,
Even if I'm hiding and I know that I miss
The feelings I once had, though it doesn't matter how,

One day I'll move on
And be able to face the dawn