"I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone in the darkness" Marshall knows me But on a serious note, what did I do now? I went to head home, forgot to charge my phone. Before all of this I was already contemplating self harm Wanted to take the edge off But that's a stupid filthy way I'm beginning to scare myself I was doing well at telling the truth But look I'm about to lose Grabbed a bottle of Jameson Drank myself silly Burn and bled Wanted a dose because I'm ****** in the head I claim I have no one because I'm still battling all it myself Physical and verbal appearance isn't enoguh nor doesn't help I'll be alone crying and singing a lullaby I may or may need a med The lights are dead I'm alone in the darkness wishing i wasn't so ****** up I hope people will keep their mouths shut I blacked out and started crying Called my ex She is so beautiful but it's over and I need to figure out what to do next I don't remember last night because I blacked out **** i blacked out Blacked out Hello darkness that didn't take long to see you again Where a blade and a lighter Lets set blood on fire I've got the urge because its a desire I need to chill Don't give me a pill Though I'm curious Resuscitate me if I overdose I'm curious Nah **** that I'm better and know better than to do that Get off me darkness I don't want to remember darkness speaks "Grab another drink then" Fine I will I really need to stop relying Benzodiazepine to chill But wait I haven't done that in a long time lets keep it that way I don't need a pill addiction But **** me for failing again Why did i let darkness in Where did it begin What's happening My night is a big blur I remember hearing her voice here and there then i remember puking Then i remember trying to walk........ Woke up crying....... **** I'm sober again What the **** just happened?