Health is a lie
You have to learn to look in the eyes
Health is a state
you can't always attain

Health flees and stays
you can't summon her
she summons you instead

Some call her health,
some call her happiness
different names
same thing in the end

(She said take your brains out
you don't need them to do good
drown in my sugar darkness
humid and fruitful)

I've changed so much
I just can't go back there

There is something I can't catch
why?

Dare to trespass the limits
to get somewhere other

I have to trace the lines
to know where this mess began
Pick up the threads, knots to untie

Learn to look at things the way they are
that's the only way out
No glitter rays, but no grim days
Just godly ways

Why did it look so good
why it's turning a nightmare
will you hold my hand dear
walk with me through hell

Show me the other side
please goddess please

Everything got muddled
everyday more and more
how to stop
Break the cycle, end up the war

Oh, don't get any mistaken with me
I am just a neurotic *****
obsessed with *** and ****
Every little pain just adds to the stake

And if it breaks, because I won't
We'll throw a party, all giddy up
(I am afraid as ****)