I was drowning in my thoughts
Thoughts drowning in me
Drowning...
Lack of oxygen in the body causing significant distress
That feeling of drowning in my brain
Brain with no oxygen equals dead
Brain dead
Dead brain
Might as well be dead
Death be to me
I have to take an inhaler that good oxygen
No...
I mustn't
Losing consciousness
Body going limp
Limp goes the body of a sunken soldier
Fighting for so long
Now must die
0% oxygen to the brain
I'm cut off
The fatal ends have come
This violent delight had it's violent end
Violent end for a violent delight
Hear ringing in my ear
Is this death?
I'm almost there!
Stop breathing stop breathing sto...
I'm breathing and I don't know why
I'm half conscious
My mom holds my face above my death
My face she was holding
I was so weak
I wanted to **** her
"WhY mOm!"
"I wAnT tO dIe!"
All twas blurring out of sight
Sight gone blurry
Hear yelling but twas muffled
My step dad was mad I could tell
I could feel tears on my face
They weren't mine
As soon as it hit
I cried
Cried I did
Like a *******
"WhY dIdN't YoU lEt Me Go?"
My mom brought me to the car
a long drive was ahead of us
I asked two questions
One to my sister
"w o u l d y o u c r y i f i d i e ?"
The other to my mom
"w o u l d y o u c r y a t m y f u n e r a l?"
They both agreed to the statement made
The moon split
And crumbled
Falling like fireworks
Into the sea
The sea...
I admired all my life
Now in ever admiration
I try to open the car door to dive into the depths of the sea
Sea of depths I open a door to
no variation of lifestyle is good for me to live
Might as well not
Worthlessness surrounds me like a black ora
I just won't go away
Away it won't
A smell I have smelt before
Lingers in my nose
I hate this smell
An institute waiting for me with open arms
I've gone many moons before
We get in
They ask the same
I'm so lost in my hysteria
My face went numb
Lady: Breathe