It was just a wall they were just kids writing “freedom” but those words delivered an invitation to test what that meant It was a tipping point in the struggle to understand the breathing pattern of liberation and freedom
they soon understood that first comes an exhalation jubilee the ecstasy of that introductory spark Maybe soon there will be fireworks-- inhale. one long inhale swallowing the spark whole I wonder if they understood when they pulled off their fingernails when they tore flesh when they burned cigarettes on their skin when they drove them into the cold and blackness
This inhale has not been released creating a vacuum of fear explosions writing 2 years of war more than 70,000 dead 1,000 children 80,000 displaced
if you looked up just once you would see Sleeping Beauty the little girl, so restful she seemed if you don’t ask how she died if you looked at her hands, her hair, her face and refused to look away If you lengthened your drifting attention span you would see her and us
children, in the cold and blackness Learning to breathe again after watching our best friend being shot or cousin tortured this repetition doesn’t make anything easier this infinity of sorrow doesn’t shrink the farther you venture on and as you watch this supposed infinity through a screen do not cease to be in content with its vastness
I know what infinity feels like and it is heavy the bruises on my back are noble and I do believe my own children will one day tell of them with pride on their tongues but I cannot balance this weight on backbone alone they have burned my flesh they have charred my heart but I know the difference between machine guns and open palms clawing at the stars they can come at me a million times but someone will take my place and hundreds will take theirs because their smoke can only clear but our flame has been born within us We are candles in the sky no matter how hard you blow you cannot win our flame will not die.