i don’t always like
contentment and simplicity

because i love waking up smiling
and falling asleep smiling
and the feeling of my heart racing
from the onset of a new adventure

and loss and pain
can be just as exhilarating
because while it hurts,
there’s still an opened door
somewhere
that promises hope
of a better future

so when i’m not immersed
in a beginning or an ending
and i’m stuck in the middle
of monotonous emptiness,
i am at risk of throwing myself
into avoidable heartbreak

just to feel something,
anything at all