I may be afraid to write
but only because I don't want it to be about you...
My heart already knows you're always on my mind,
My mind has already accepted it.
      I'm just waiting to not feel,
Hoping something could. will happen.
             But just waiting not to feel.
Sadly like all the others faded away.
But this is different?
                                 I don't know you'll stay around.
But I hope you will.
                                 I want you too.
Fact is. You're unreal.
            That's not going to change.
If you Vanish,
                       how will I know you were ever real?


**May 9, 2013