sometimes you just
look in a mirror
and get a shock.

you walk around
thinking to yourself
why would anybody
want to be around me?

you forget that it not always
what you see in the mirror
that makes you unappealing.

its deeper than skin
and you hate it.
you can't help it.

you wish you could change
who you've become.

you wish that you could
unsee those horrors and
undo unthinkable acts.

you wish that you could
be innocent again.

you forget that not all monsters
can be visible from the outside.
like the monsters you trusted,
who deceived you much like
you deceive others.

this is why,
you hate who you are.



xoxo
i love you.