maybe it’s a nervous breakdown I am twitching a lot moving my feet and hands in alternate patterns constantly and I can’t seem to think everything sounds like static so maybe it’s my body finally shutting down slowly tearing down the whole show letting people see how it really is and I can’t figure out why but something is definitely happening and I’m sitting here, watching myself, seeing all that I am come apart at the seams letting loose what little I have within me so that it can flutter off into the dark and rainy night